Evita, Evita's friend, Marilyn and my sort-of-boss

I saw Evita last Sunday. We had pretty much the basic set. I fucked her in several positions, spanked her ass until it was all red, fingered her ass, strangled her, pulled on her hair. One new thing I did was breath constriction. I covered her mouth and nose with my hand for just half a second so she couldn't breath. It was fun.

One thing was different. I don't know what went wrong, but I was unable to cum. I fucked her for ages, but I just couldn't get there. I very seldom have to fake orgasms, but this time I did it. It just wasn't going to happen and I didn't want to make her feel bad. I can't say what the problem was. Ok, I had masturbated some hours before her arrival so that probably had an effect, but I've done that a million times before.

Another thing that lowered my excitement was her finger nails in my buttocks. This time it really hurt. I like pain but naturally there is a limit to when it's enjoyable and when it's just plain and simply painful. I moved her hands away, but I guess the harm was already done. I can't even say that I just wasn't in the right mood since I could cum just fine in the shower only moments after the act. I guess I just wasn't in the mood to fuck her.

I saw her on Wednesday too, but I told her that I don't want to fuck. I just really didn't feel like it. I was tired and wanted to sleep. I think she was a bit offended. Anyway, I'm seeing her tomorrow so I'll make it up to her.

It's just so sad that she doesn't know how to give a decent blowjob. I'm so much in need of some good cock sucking, but she's not able to deliver. I've tried giving her some pointers, but there's just something so fundametally wrong with her technique that I'd need to do a lot of work on her to fix it. Laura gives me the best blowjobs, but that's simply because I've spent a lot of time teaching her what feels good and what doesn't so she knows me very well.

I forgot to mention a certain thing that pissed me off when I was at a bar with Evita and her friend. The friend was the same girl she hung out with the night I grew interested of Evita. I have no idea what I've been thinking. Her friend is way better looking and much more my type as a person than Evita. She could even possibly be girlfriend material. And I've probably ruined all my possibilites with since her and Evita are really close friend.

I've been thinking about just telling Evita about this and asking if it was OK if I asked her friend out, but it doesn't strike me as the best idea in the world. I'd probably just end up losing this thing I have with Evita now. It's not that it's worth a lot to me and I feel it means less and less everytime I see her, but still she's is a cumbucket at my disposal.

Dear readers, I'd appreciate your comments on this matter. Do you think I should talk to Evita about this or just forget about the whole deal? There are a lot of fish in the sea as we all know, but then again who knows what could come of me and her together. Please share you ideas on how to to come about this problem.

I was suppose to see Marilyn again last week but we were both really busy. This week I sent her a message on Monday asking if she'd like to meet up on Friday. It's Friday now and she hasn't even replied to my SMS. I'm probably going to stop contacting her. I don't want to push it. And I'm probably suppose to read between the lines. So this turned out pretty much the way I predicted earlier, only it took less than I thought.

Tonight I'm meeting the woman I mentioned that is sort of my boss. I wasn't suppose to act on it, but I do like her company. And it's not a date or anything, we're just going to talk.