Lots of questions, hardly any answers

Ok, nothing much to blog about in my sex life. I've been doing a lot of stuff, but this time pussy has had a fairly small role.

I had a really quiet and relaxing weekend. Girls were on my mind a lot, but, you're not going to believe this, I wasn't thinking about fucking them up the ass. Well, maybe a few times, but that doesn't really count. Kinda like having sex with a man. If you only do it once or twice it doesn't really make you gay ;)

I was trying to find some answers to the questions I've lately found bugging me more and more often. Am I happy with my current situation? What can I do to make my life better? Is there really a single girl who could fulfill all my dreams? If I stop reaching for the gold medal, will I even find a silver one? And do I really give a fuck about medals? How about just playing the game?

Do I really want to get married someday? If I get married, will I get bored in 20 years and start buying 18-year-old whores on business trips? Will I be one of those old men offering money for sex to 16-year-old girls in online forums?

There's only one thing I'm certain about. I want kids. Someday, I want to be a father. And I'm going to be a good one. So, maybe instead of looking for the girl of my dreams I should be looking for the mother of my children?

But seriously, if she's the perfect mother, but she doesn't take it up the ass, is it going to work out? Am I putting too much emphasis on sex? It's just one aspect of many. Is it me who is at fault and not the girls? If so, what can do about it? I can't unsee all the porn and I can't undo the things I've done. And I don't want to. I love loving butts and sub/dom. On the other hand, I think cannibals also love eating human flesh even if they know it's wrong.

I want a beautiful, sporty girl who is outgoing and social. She has decent job and she's smart. The most common expression on her face is a smile. She knows how to dress well and likes doing so. She likes good restaurants, art and music. She reads.. books! She wants kids and is willing to dedicate enough time to motherhood.

In bed, she likes sub/dom and anal play. She's bold and open-minded. She knows she looks good naked and isn't afraid show off a bit. Sometimes she'll go to great lengths just to suprise me pleasantly. She's a horny nympho who just can't get enough.

Please send your informal applications to my gmail account ;) My username is releaving (dot) farewell.