Feeling lonely

Now I know that it doesn't matter if I'm in love with Lisa, because it's never going to happen. I discussed the issue with her and she said the age difference is too big of a deal for her. Pity, I really like that girl and I don't give a shit about her age.

Getting turned down always makes me feel so damn lonely.

I just hope the fact that I brought up the subject doesn't end our fuck buddy relationship. I told her not to worry about it, but naturally things aren't quite that simple. We'll see what happens. I want to bang her properly. Let's hope we have the time soon.

Sara did come over after my previous post but we didn't fuck. She didn't make an iniative and I just kept thinking about Lisa. So nothing happened. No suprise though, I have no spark for her. She's way too easy. I like the kind of girls whom you chase for months and still fail.

This is one of those moments when I'd need a hug from my girlfriend.