I'm not dead yet

Wow, it's been quite a while since I wrote last time. Actually, probably the biggest break I've had since I started writing this blog. Don't worry, I don't intend to make it a habit. I hope no one thought I died of Chlamydia or anything.

The break was a sum of many things. I've been very busy, but then again, I'm always very busy. I guess the biggest factor was lack of motivation. I just haven't felt like writing. Somehow it seems like the foundation for this blog is crumbling when I'm not fucking everything that moves and complaining about their pubic hair. A strong foundation, I know ;)

I have to say, I even thought about ending this blog. I'd want to write about a rock'n'roll way of life, but now that I'm dating I can't. Somehow I feel this blog is driving towards certain decisions that I might not otherwise make. The question is if it's really the blog or is the blog simply the manifestation? I'm guessing it's the latter and thus I'll keep writing, at least for now.

A lot has happened since I last wrote. I've twice almost dumped Jenni, but somehow I've always crawled back to her. I love being with her, but I also miss my life as single. I really can't decide what to do. It doesn't help that Jenni is recklessly in love with me.

I've also had coffee with the receptionist girl thrice. It's been pretty innocent and definitely not dates since we've only had coffee after we've bumped into each other at the office. But she probably thinks there's more to it. If I told her that I'm dating, she'd probably be pissed off. I guess that means it can't be all innocent.

I'd so want to fuck Christine. I'd so want fuck Iina. And there's a few others on the list too. Even though sex with Jenni is a lot of fun, I want it all. I'm beginning to think that monogamy is only for the unattractive people who have to marry to make sure they've got at least someone by their side.

If Jenni didn't do ATM*, I probably would've already dumped her.

* Ass-to-mouth, for all you who don't watch porn ;)