Why anal?

Nickname 'tes' asked about my anal fixation in my previous post. (The comment is in Finnish.) I already started writing a reply, but soon realized that the subject needs more attention. There's some issues that I've already touched earlier, but hopefully this will be a more thorough explanation than I've written before.

Some years ago I tried tracking down the starting point of my anal fixation. I remember that my first sex partner, whom I was also dating at the time, suggested anal sex, but I was the one who refused since I didn't find it interesting. A few years later my diary is filled with anal-obsessed fantasies of girls in my class at school. (Yes, I wrote a diary as a kid. Let it go.;)) I have no idea what happened and when exactly. I don't even know if the change was gradual or instant since there's lenghty intervals when I didn't write at all.

I watched a lot of porn at that age, though it was a lot harder to come by since Al Gore had not yet invented the Internet. I had a big collection, but it wasn't especially focused on anal. Today pretty much all the porn I watch is anal-related. Porn must've had an effect on my views on sex, but I don't think it's one of the big reasons behind my obsession for ass fucking.

What is it then? What makes anal sex so enticing?

I think what I love most is the intimacy. I can't think of a more private place in the human body than the anus. Of all the guys who give it a shot, only very few get to see inside the panties of a beautiful girl. Only a small subset of those already carefully selected men gain access to the asshole. Assfucking is special.

Having a girl spread her pussy in front of you is, in today's world, not that big of a deal. Having a girl spread her ass cheeks, however, is. It's the most beautiful thing. How gives a fuck about a sunset at a beach or the birth of a child when you can look at the spread ass of a hot girl. Ok, maybe I went a little overboard, but you get the point ;)

Intimacy has common grounds with submission. For some reason, the way I see it, a girl is submitting when she's getting fucked up the ass. The only explanation for this association that I can think of, and I admit I maybe going way over my head, is the fact that the anus was not, anatomically speaking, "designed" to be entered. It's submission because, in a way, the only aim is to please the man. You can't even reproduce this way. Of course, the truth is that most women enjoy anal sex just as much as men, but I suppose the primitive parts in the male brain don't mind.

Ass-to-mouth is all about submission. The physical sensation is the same whether you get your cock sucked before or after anal intercourse. The extra pleasure is all in your head. It's about having a girl that's willing to do pretty much anything to please you. When you strip the details, isn't that exactly what love is about? Loving someone so much that you'd give your own life for the other. I'm not saying that ass-to-mouth is the way to show you boyfriend you love him. What I am saying is that maybe, in a way, the feeling of getting your cock sucked after anal sex, is similar to the feeling of being loved.

I bet I'm pissing off a lot of people when talking about ATM and love in the same paragraph. I still have a lot of issues to be solved with that thing called love. The post "Is love a hoax?" may have only been the beginning. However, seek no comfort in commenting this post and saying I have a twisted image of love since above I'm using the term to speak of exactly the Hollywoodish unconditional love that I always get preached about. My personal resolution on love is not yet complete, I'm not sure if such love even exists.

It's a common misbelief that guys love anal sex because the ass is so tight. It's simply not true. At least in my case it isn't. The ass only feels especially tight when you enter. Yeah, sure, it does feel great for that little while, but once you start pounding the sensation is pretty much the same whether it's anal or vaginal. It's not the tightness.

Ready to settle down?

The last two weeks have been a real hassle. I've been busy at work and with hobbies, but you know what's kept me going? Yes, Jenni does brighten my days with her silly text messages, but what's really kept me going is sports. I can't stress how important sports is to your overall well-being. And besides, who wants to fuck a fat ass, literally.

My thoughts on dating have gone up and down like a rollercoaster, but the average is still for. Naturally, if it wasn't, I'd be writing about how I dumped her. She has a lot of great features I like and very few bad, but somehow I still find it hard to picture me marrying her. Something is missing and this time it's not the spark that everyone's always talking about. There's definately a spark between us. It's something else that's not right.

I still haven't had a girl lick my ass while another is giving me a blowjob. I still haven't pulled out of an ass just to enter another girl's mouth. The good question is if it's ever going to happen. I'm not sure if even paid women would do such things and anyway I'd never sink that low. I hereby solemnly swear that I will never pay for sex.

There's always going to be unfulfilled dreams. The question is when to stop chasing them and just settle for what you've got. I'm not saying doing so is giving up or losing. On the contrary, I think it's wise. Idiots spend millions at Casinos because they don't know when to quit. I don't want to do that with my life.

Am I ready to settle for what I've got? Unfortunately, I don't think so.

Is love a hoax?

Despite the good sex with Jenni I am getting a bit frustrated. It's every man's primitive urge to spread seeds as much as possible. Since we're human were endowed with a will to only favor one girl, but I'm not quite sure that's what I want. Now or ever.

I've always been somewhat sure that I want a family, kids and all but today I somehow started thinking if it's really all only due to social pressure from the society around me. And if it is, should I resist it or simply play along?

All the movies are always about two people falling in love and breaking through every obstacle. Most governments favor marriage. My parents would probably kill me if I told them I'm never going to marry anyone. Talk about brainwashing.

You've probably heard of those children that were raised by terrorists? Poor kids have no understanding of the world around them, they only know that they hate the USA because that's what they've been brought up to. What if love is a similar hoax, only on a world wide scale?

Why do I get the feeling I'm writing like Carrie in "Sex and the City"? Is it because of all the questions? ;)

What's behind all this pondering? I want to fuck Iina and for what I can read between the lines, she's got her panties wet for me too. I can't stop thinking about all the things I could do with Christine if we were to meet again, I'm buzzing with new ideas. There's also a girl from a time before the blog, who started dating but has now split up, showing new interest in me.

I'm walking in candy land with my hands tied behind my back, but with my eyes open. Sure, I've got a lollipop in my mouth but sometimes it's chocolate you want.

ATM

Happy New Year everyone!

Me and Jenni celebrated separately since she was out of town. She was away for 6 days and I was frustratingly horny for the whole time. The fact that Iina told me she's no longer dating and wants sex didn't help at all. After talking to Christine about renewing our little adventure I probably would've humped a fat girl had one popped up naked in front of me right then. Ok, well, that's an overstatement, but I suppose you get the picture, I was very horny. (Btw. use the search bar above to find posts on the girls mentioned.)

I tried getting solace from Jenni with text messages, but she seemed pretty reluctant to reply to my semi-cybersexish messages. Dirty messages is the next best thing to physical contact. SMS, MSN, email, anything goes. She didn't play along at all.

This is where some readers probably think I'm going to tell you how I cheated on Jenni on New Year's Eve and justified it with my horniness and her reluctance to answer my dirty messages. Well, screw you ;)

Jenni got back today and she'll feel it for a few days I'm sure. She was sitting on my chair when I started groping her tits and licking her ear. I took her twins out and massaged them somewhat roughly while kissing her. "Take your pants off" I commanded.

For a few seconds I cirled her clit with my finger through her panties, but then pulled them aside, kneeled in front of her and started licking. Soon I slid in a finger, which doubled her moaning. After cumming she smiled and thanked me. Funny girl.

I told her to get on the bed on all fours. I wanted to get a good look at her from behind since her butt had been on my mind almost continuously for the last 6 days. I enjoyed the view, spanked her a few times and then licked her asshole. I pushed her down to lay on her stomach. When I reached to kiss her, my cock nicely placed itself on her asshole.

I hadn't planned on trying to penetrate her ass this time, but I guess she wanted me to since she started pushing her ass against me. Slowly it did sink in. Not all the way, but at least the tip. I just held still and she did it all by herself taking all the time she needed. It didn't hurt her at all. I encouraged her by moaning louder and louder the deeper my cock sinked even though the sensation wasn't that special really. I also called her my little slut quite a few times which must make any woman feel cherished.

I didn't want to go deeper in this position since it's definately not the best one for anal sex so I very, very slowly pulled out and turned her around. She wanted me to fuck her in the pussy, but I told her it's not going to happen before my cock's been in her mouth. Without hesitation she started sucking it. An exceptional slut she is - the third (I think) to suck my cock right after anal.

She slid her lips up and down once or twice and said 'Well, now it's been in my mouth'. What a horny teaser. I guess she noticed I was hoping for some more since she continued almost immediately. I stopped her and said "Spread your legs, slut". She laughed a bit and got down on all fours in front of me. I penetrated her, moved in and out a few times and said "We'll now it's been in your pussy". She started begging me to fuck her, but I put my cock on her ass and started pushing gently. At first I was only planning on teasing her, but she started pushing against me so vigorously that I knew it was time for some more anal.

I backed off, spread saliva on her ass and put my cock back at the entrance of heaven. Again I let her do all the pushing. I just pulled on her hair hair, called her names and bit on her neck and shoulders. This time we got it in all the way. I felt great, of course. Slowly I started fucking her ass and after a while I felt I didn't need to be so careful anymore so I just concentrated on enjoying her ass to the fullest extent. If I slowed down the pace, she kept pushing herself towards my cock. When I asked if she liked it up the ass her reply was positive.

I could've cummed then and there, but I knew she still wanted more vaginal intercourse. Slowly I pulled out and told her to suck on it. Once again the little slut obediently swallowed a cock that came out of her ass just a second ago. There's not a lot a girl can do more to make me feel so powerful and dominant (and thus good).

She deserved a reward so I fucked her like an animal in the missionary until she told me she wanted it from behind. We continued doggy style. "Is it OK if I want to cum in your ass?" I couldn't just have my way with her since I knew she might be sore from all the pounding a few moments earlier. "Yes", she replied to my great delight.

When I pulled out and ran my tongue across her asshole to lubricate it again, she shuddered. I asked a stupid question, but I wanted to be sure: "It's too sore?". -"Yes". I had to make do without cumming in her ass, but that was such a minor setback after the sex we'd just had that it's hardly even worth mentioning. I entered her pussy again and blew my load in a matter of seconds.

I prepared some food and after eating she had to head home. I checked the bus timetables and noticed we still had ten minutes before she had to be out of the door. We were lying on the bed. Without any bigger plans I pulled her pants and panties down just enough to reveal her pussy and started licking it. She was a bit hesitant, but didn't reject me. (I guess she's learning.)

Some devil must've gotten over me when I pulled down my own pants, lifted her legs and entered her. I licked her and fucked myself to and orgasm, all within 10 minutes. When she left she said I'm the sickest man she's ever met. What a compliment.