Loads of exciting things, hardly any excitement

I saw Mirva last Saturday. I've been very lazy with keeping in touch with her. She calls me every now and then and asks me out. I'm not interested in her, but sometimes it's fun to just spend time with someone instead of being alone. I didn't even try anything with her. Just a few kisses and some groping at my place, but it was hardly even worth mentioning. I'll fuck her if the moment comes, but I'm not planning on making it happen.

Last week I did play around with an old friend of mine. We've actually known each other for quite a few years and there's always been a mutual interest, but nothing's ever really happened between us romantically. Sexually, something. I won't go to the details for now, but just for the record, I haven't fucked her. However, if it hadn't been for her period, things would be different now.

I didn't even get a blowjob, but at least she had a decent reason. She thinks she may have been infected with herpes by her previous boyfriend and she doesn't want to pass it on. Quite a mood breaker, but a very valid and respectable reason, naturally.

Jonna is back in the game. I met her at a bar during the weekend and she wanted me to come over and fuck her. I wanted to but I couldn't since it was already very late and I had an early morning.

I've been thinking about inviting her over, but so far I haven't made a move. I'm actually having rather mixed feelings about the whole thing. Sure, I'd want a slut that takes it up the ass, but for some reason there's a spark missing. I've mentioned this in the blog before, I'm sure. There's just something not there. She's kind of like an extra hand to jerk off with. Ok, she's kinky so maybe she's like a hand with a leather glove on. But, umh, you know, I already have two. Plus Evita.

Don't get me wrong when I talk about a spark. This has nothing to do with infatuation or love. It's a purely sexual spark. With some girls you just burn with desire to peel off those panties and marvel at that shaved pussy. With some girls, you don't. Jonna is of the latter category.

To some of my readers this might come as a shock, but I'm also a bit worried that she'll become too entangled with me. She's already shown some faint signs that what were doing isn't very healthy for her, mentally. I'd like to stress the word 'faint' since I might be just imagining it all. However, I don't want her to be dependent on me for real. I want a sex slave, not a real slave.

All the fun things you can do with a belt + some whining

Evita slept over at my place yesterday. We had a rather nice evening. Shampange, talking and sex. Normally, I prefer not to talk to her since she's not especially smart, but somehow yesterday we got along pretty well.

We started off standing. She willingly arched her back and pushed her butt out so I could spank her properly. I also got down on my knees behind her and licked her ass.

I had already decided earlier that I'm going to use my belt on her so I told her to lay down on the bed with her butt up. When I took off my belt she must've known what was coming, but she didn't even blink. Her ass was already red and the belt sure as hell didn't help. Still, obediently, she kept her ass up. Only after one rather hard hit did she drop. I pulled her ass up again, but eased off on the spanking. It's not suppose to hurt for real. There's a limit when it's not fun anymore and naturally I didn't want to cross it.

After spanking there was some pussy and ass licking and some mouth fucking, the usual. The next new thing was when I started fucking her from behind and strangled her with the belt. That was pretty sexy, though I had to be very careful. I hardly even pulled on the belt to make sure I didn't hurt her. Nonetheless, it was very hot.

Evita would be the perfect fuck if she only took it up the ass and if she wasn't so lousy at sucking cock. But then again, if she was all that, the world would explode since it can't handle such girls. What a pity.

Lisa and I are gonna take some distance. It was her initiative, but I agree. We talked on the phone a few days ago and I was finally able to squeeze out some real facts from her. She said she can't imagine me as the father of her children and thus doesn't want to date. She admitted that it's because she feels like she's running out of time and she hated me for making her say it out loud. Well, it was my time to be selfish. Our thing has so far been all about her.

I knew the facts all along, but somehow I just couldn't take it in unless I heard it straight out at my face. Now I know that I shouldn't waste much time on her since it's just not going to happen. The truth is that even if we had become a pair, we would've broken up very soon, I believe. There was just some kind of magic between us, but we all know that that kind of stuff never lasts.

But no matter how much you reason that this is all for the best, I hate it. I've thought about things a lot after the phone call and I miss her. I miss that plain vanilla girl, now how ironic is that.

Lisa, oh, Lisa

A lot has been going on in my personal life during the last month. Most of it is work- and family-related and thus outside the scope of this blog. Some time ago I decided that I won't apologize for not updating since I started this blog as a diary for myself. Now that I have a few readers who actually want to know how I'm doing I feel obliged: sorry.

The softie girl and I still keep in touch on a daily basis. We've had a few sexual encounters and I did penetrate her successfully without a condom and very drunk. I didn't cum inside her or anything, thank god for that, but it was pretty stupid anyway.

I've had some hard times with this thing we have going on. Normally I like it when you don't need to define a relationship, when you just go with the flow. With her, it's different. I'd want to make her my girl. Of course, she doesn't want to define our relationship. So this time around, I'm the one on a leash.

However, I've kept myself together so far. I just need to remind myself that she's a softie and I like rough sex. If she was my girlfriend, I'd probably dump her in two months because she wouldn't do ATM.

Some other girls have been coming and going, but nothing really worth mentioning. I suppose I've calmed down a bit. Or maybe I'm just spending too much effort on Lisa.

I did bump into Jonna in a bar a few weeks ago. We got into a conversation in which she said that I'm the best sex she's ever had. I've heard from common friends that she's not doing too well with her boyfriend anymore. Maybe I'm about to get my slut back. She's definitely the most obedient one I've had so far. Keep your fingers crossed ;)