Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Things I want to try

The thing I probably fantasize most of is sex with two women. More specifically I'd want to fuck a girl in the ass and then put it straight in to the mouth of the other girl. Hard to tell what is so arousing about this, but it turns me on big time. My cock gets rock hard from just writing about it. I'd also want to fuck a girl in the ass while the other is licking my asshole. Those two things both feel so good that sadly I'd probably cum immediately.

I've tried domination in some forms, but not quite the way I'd want to. I've never been really in charge. The partners haven't been interested in that sort of thing as much as I am and probably agreed to do it mostly because I wanted to try it out. It would be great to dominate someone who really could enjoy the submission.

The submission I've tried has been even more plain due to the same reasons. As I wrote earlier, I would want to give myself completely to someone's disposal. Hopefully a girl will come along who'll treat me like the slut I am.

Interracial sex is also on my list. This is something I don't fantasize very often about, but it still is definately something I would want to try. Does the "once you go black, you never go back" apply to women too? I'm very willing to find out.

Those were the few things that came in to my mind first when I thought about things I want to try. Do tell me about yours. Write me an email or comment this post.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

One night stands

I was at a music festival for the whole weekend, drinking and having fun. Met a new girl. I'll call her Tea. Tea has a very nice ass with OK tits and face. Had some fun with her in my tent, fingering and the sort, but nothing big. She kept calling me lovely. I told her I don't want to have sex with her there, though she probably wouldn't have complied either since she seemed to be the type who wants to date, not just shag. I probably will be seeing more of her later.

I was horny as hell, so why did I tell her I didn't want to have sex with her there? Well, I was so drunk I probably wouldn't have been able to keep it up. We had both slept in a tent the evening before with no shower and I like my girls hygienic and don't like to feel dirty myself either. But those reasons are really just beside the point. The main reason I told her that is that I generally don't like one night stands. I prefer fuck buddies.

One night stands are very seldom satisfactory. Awesome sex requires a strong connection between the participants. It doesn't necessarily have to be a connection of love, care and bonding. A simple and pure connection on a sexual level will suffice. I find it hard to connect to a girl I know nothing of.

Is this a sign that I'm not a good lover? Would a better lover find a connection faster? I'm not ruling this out. If I don't happen to bump into someone special any time soon, maybe with more experience I'll get better and find the connection faster. But until then I'll just have to work with what I got.

Fuck buddies are great. You already know what kind of things your buddy wants and likes. You know how to please her so well her knees start to tremble when you show her. And what's best, the progress. Sex with a new partner is always about making the pieces to fit together. With a fuck buddy you learn the basics and start climbing the ladder where every step brings you greater pleasure.

Maybe my personal preferences also make one night stands a bit harder. How could I want to do BDSM with someone I just met when I find it hard to even suggest anal sex. And the fact is that I get a lot more out of those "special" things than plain vanilla sex.

Therefore, I try turn every encounter with the right potential into a sex relationship.

Friday, July 22, 2005

BDSM

Haven't seen any of the girls this week so I thought I'd just write about something general. I already told you about my anal obsession, but I haven't discussed my interests towards BDSM.

BDSM isn't a huge thing for me. I think it is fun and can be very enjoyable, but it's not the thing I fantasize frequently about. I do sometimes, but not nearly as often as anal sex, for example.

I enjoy being dominant. I like the idea of a girl being completely at my mercy (of course, willingly and liking it). I could tie her up, spank her ass, fuck her mouth, finger her ass and make her lick my fingers, call her a slut and eventually ejaculate on a plate and have her lick it clean.

So far I haven't found a partner who could/would dominate me. I would be more than willing to be submissive too. I can imagine her spanking me, sitting on my face, fucking my ass with a dildo, calling me a slut and maybe eventually even making me lick my own cum.

Damn, now I've got a major hard on and I'm at work.

If I could just find a girl with her own ideas in bed. So far all the girls I've had sex with have mostly just followed my lead. Where are the girls who make you an object of their desire? I'd wouldn't mind at all being a tool of pleasure at a girl's disposal. Girls, come on, be a little more active.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Waiting for the taxi with my cock in her mouth

Sabrina and Aino are both away, so all I have is Helga. Luckily she's such a good lay.

I had planned that I'd meet her on Saturday, but I ended up drinking a bit with friends and wanted to go out, so I invited her to come with us. I went back to my place to take a shower before heading to the night clubs and she came over so we could leave together.

She was wearing a short skirt. That's bad. I have this primal urge to pull up skirts when ever I encounter them and I did that with her too. She sat on my cock and we played around a bit. She wanted to stay and just fuck, but I wanted to go a night club and fuck later.

She was very convincing. She sucked my cock with very respectful intensity. I called a cab and took her outside. She sucked my cock outside while waiting for the cab. We hopped in. I fingered her in the car while chatting with the driver.

We kept ourselves civil at the night club. I was just a bit embarassed to introduce her to my friends since I knew they'd be asking me if she was my girlfriend and I'd have to tell them something. The problem is that to those who aren't my close friends, I can't just say that she's a fuck buddy. But anyway, I didn't let this bother me much.

When the bar closed we took a cab to my place. I was ready for some action, but then all went to hell. She was too drunk and started contemplating our relationship. She wasn't sure if I was just using her as a sex toy. I carried her to bed and she fell asleep instantly.

Luckily, the next morning was a lot better. I'm always horny when I have a hangover. And luckily, so is she. We had sex in several positions and I kept telling her what a bad girl she is for liking to suck my cock so much, liking anal sex, fingering her asshole in front of me and the sort. I came inside her.

Oh, yeah, almost forgot that at sometime during Saturday evening she told me that since I introduced her to anal sex, she's been fingering her anus everytime she masturbates.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Conflict resolution

Had a bit of an embarassing moment yesterday ;) Aino was at my place. I went to get the car to take her home and she was left alone in my apartment for a while. She took my digital camera and looked at the pictures, finding Helga fingering her asshole. I had downloaded the pictures on to my computer, but I hadn't deleted them from the camera yet.

When she came into the car she told me what she had seen. I told her that she shouldn't have been looking at my camera, that it is private. I was pissed off, she was calm. Funny how the whole situation was turned a bit upside down. I drove like a madman, but I couldn't help finding some comedy in the situation.

"So I'm suppose to apologize for looking at your camera?" she asked.
-"You invaded my privacy. Yes, you should."
"Well, I'm sorry" she said with sarcasm in her voice. And after that we didn't talk for a while. I thought that this is the last time I'll be seeing her.

"Let's talk now, face to face, if there is something to say." I said and after a while she started asking question concerning the pictures and the amount of girls I'm seeing and the sort. To almost all of them I replied "None of your business", since it isn't. I clarified to her once again that we are not dating and that means she doesn't own me. She said she knew that, but told me how serious she is about me. She'd want to date me, but I want to stay single. She cried.

What took off the edge was that she told me she'd also had sex with another guy the day before. So how can she be pissed at me if she's been doing the same thing? Well, it was just this one guy and because she thought yesterday that things aren't going to work out for us anyway. LOL ;) Well, anyway, I was back on top of things ;)

I went in for a cup of coffee, we talked some more, and I kept telling her that I don't want to date and I don't want to make promises. She said she wants me to be her's. We kissed a few times. She's going away for a few weeks, back to her parents place again, and she told me that if I miss her I'm going to have to tell her that immediately. I promised I would and left.

Right after I closed the door I wrote her an SMS that said I missed her a lot and was in need of a hug. I could hear her phone beep through the door and she giggled a bit when she read the message. I rang the door bell and hugged her when she opened the door. Then I left, for real. When I got to the car, she'd sent me a message saying "you're absolutely lovely" ;) I giggled to myself all the way home ;)

What an unbelievable evening. First she sees porn pictures I've taken of another girl and in the end she's telling me how lovely I am. Now talk about conflict resolution ;)

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Lust, Sex and Sodomy with Helga

On Friday I was drinking with friends and so was Helga. We sent each other SMS messages and in the end she took a cab to the place me and my friends were at. Us both being a bit drunk it didn't take long for things to get a bit heated. We went outside for a walk or something [yeah, I know it's obvious;)]. We walked around the corner, I pushed her back against the wall, pulled her trousers and panties down and licked her. She enjoyed it for a while and then said "This is the wrong way around" and so we switched parts. I was getting a blowjob in front of someone's carage, luckily in the middle of the night. And she really knows how to do it. She sucked on my cock with a vigor that told me it's going to be a long night.

After a while we went back in. We agreed that we won't go yet. I took a sauna with my friends and we had some more to drink. And again we couldn't keep our hands off of each other. We went into a private room and I licked and fingered her. She sucked my cock and didn't want to stop. I tried telling her that we should be getting back and pulled up my pants, but she pulled them back down and sucked even harder. Then she stood up and turned around and I entered her from behind, both standing up. Not the easiest position, but fine under the circumstances. We fucked just for a small while and then got back to the party. When people were starting to leave and those who weren't leaving were passing out, we decided it was time for a cab to my place.

At my place the fest really begun. We were both pretty tired, but that didn't bother us much. I licked her for quite a while, with her moaning and twisting and turning. I also licked her asshole, which I know she likes. She gave me more oral and I couldn't help moaning myself. We fucked in various positions. She likes it on top and I like her being on top. She really doesn't mind "doing all the work" when she's on top. She would pound her crotch against mine like an animal.

I had my digital camera near so I took pictures of her masturbating in front of me, blowing me, spreading her ass cheeks for me, fingering her asshole for me. [Not going to post them, sorry ;)] After that I penetrated her anus. Slowly it sinked in with her really feeling it. I fucked her ass in various positions and when I asked her how she liked it she said she loved it. I don't think I've ever had so much anal on one go. A few times I pulled it out of her ass and took it straight in to her mouth. My little whore she is.

She'd had at least two orgasms during the exercise and I finally let myself come in to her anus. We were both pleased. The whole thing took almost three hours. I don't see her very often, but when I do our sex adventures seldom last less than two hours. After that we slept for a while and then she took a bus home, but we agreed that we'd meet in the evening again.

And we did. I picked her up and brought her to my place to watch a movie. We started watching a stupid comedy and her having a skirt on it was too easy for me to start massaging her pussy. We'd watched the movie for less then half an hour and again I had taken off her panties and I was sucking on her clit and fingering her pussy. After a while, being numb with pleasure, she stood up and went to the balcony because it was too hot. She was leaning on the edge, I kneeled behind her, pulled up her skirt, spread her ass cheeks and licked her brown rosebud. Actually I kind of fucked her with my tongue. Then we switched and she sucked on my cock which I, once again, loved. The neighbours could have been peeking at us but we didn't care.

After that we went back inside and had sex for more than two hours again. No anal this time, because I thought it was best to let it recover from the "violence" it received very early the same day.

So all in all, a very pleasant Saturday. Today I'm probably quite busy and won't be able to meet any of the girls. And actually Sabrina is going abroad on Monday for a month or so :/ We won't probably have time to see each other before that so scoring her will just have to be postponed until later.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

Too busy

Sorry I missed a few days. Nobody probably noticed though since this is such a new blog. Is there anybody reading my rantings? ;)

I've been really busy with stuff so I haven't had time to write or to spend time with girls very much. I saw Aino on Friday and Saturday, but her friends were with us all the time so no chance of getting sex. I gave their group a lift in to town on Saturday evening and went home myself.

At home I started talking to Sabrina on the MSN and suggested that I pick her up and we go someplace. It was 1 am, but she agreed. We had a great time kissing and embracing each other in the car. I really like that girl. I think I have a bit of a crush on her.

On Sunday I had a lot to do and was unable to meet any of the girls.

Monday was also a busy day. I tried to fit Helga in to my schedule, since I haven't seen her in a while, but it didn't work out. Late at night Aino came to my place and we had sex.<

Sex is rather boring with her. She doesn't like me watching her and gets pissed if I try to get a glimpse of her naked. Only when we are really getting in to it she'll take off her clothes and even then she'll complain about the lights being too strong.

Suprisingly she did give me a little oral, normally she just enjoys me doing it to her. After that I entered her. She's really tight like Sabrina. Not as tight as Sabrina, but tight. It feels really good to be inside her, wish she was a better lay in other aspects. I came quickly, maybe a minute or so. Ihadn't had time to masturbate for a few days and the break in sex didn't help either. I didn't mind though, I wasn't enjoying myself very much anyway.

Anyway now I've been tired at work for the whole day because of that lousy fuck. Was it worth it? I really can't say.

What I started wondering is why am I seeing her? I don't especially like sex with her and she wants to see me all the time which makes my busy life even more busy and leaves me with a lot less time for the more interesting girls.

Well, at least she's a rather sure bet. And she has big breasts.

Friday, July 01, 2005

Sabrina was disappointing

Met Sabrina today. I picked her up, we came to my place and watched a movie. After the movie we just talked about stuff and of course ended up talking about sex. For example, she asked me whether I like it with lights on or off. I said "on", because sex is a very visual experience to me. Seeing things turns me on.

A little later I gently started kissing her neck and she liked it. We started kissing and embracing each other. We were talking and fooling around all the time so taking off our clothes took quite a while. She is so beautiful. Her breasts are small, but otherwise she has a very good body. Her ass is awesome. And she's self-confident which is very sexy. I could stare at her and she wasn't bothered. She's also an underwear freak, which is more than OK with me ;)

When I got her down to her thong, I moved them to the side a bit and started licking her. She had very little hair down there, nicely trimmed. I also moistened my finger a bit and slided it in her. She was really tight. I was suprised at how tight she was. I wondered will I ever fit myself in there.

So I kept fingering her and licking her at the same time when she asked me to stop because she didn't want to come yet.
"Are you sure you don't want to have your first one now?", I asked
- "Are you sure there's going to be more?"
"I'll do my best"

She liked my answer and so I kept going. After a while she asked me to kiss her so I stopped what I was doing and moved up to kiss her. A little after that I noticed blood on my finger and on the sheets. After quick conversation it turned out that she wasn't on her period. I asked if I had hurt her, but she told me I definately hadn't. The same had happened before, she said. This postponed our intercourse to a later time since she didn't feel comfortable with the idea anymore. But this is not what disappointed me. This is all OK, however unfortunate.

What disappointed me is what happened afterwards. After talking about stuff a bit and me convincing her that all is OK, she started touching my penis with her breasts. I was laying on my back and she was on top of me. It felt nice, but got boring since she just kept on doing it. Then finally she started stroking me, but with a dry hand. It didn't hurt, it did feel ok, but rather plain. All the time I was just waiting for her to take my cock in her mouth.

But she didn't. She was giving me a handjob. I asked her whether she was trying to make me come and she said she was. I said I didn't want to come on my own stomach so she said that I won't have to, that I just need to tell her when I'm going to come. So I thought "Ok, so she's probably going to take the load in her mouth". It took a while for me to get to the edge since a dry handjob isn't exactly the best thing. When I told her I was close she asked me to continue myself and laid herself on her back so I could come on her stomach, which I did.

I've never really understood the whole issue of coming on a girl's breasts or face or anything. I've tried the breasts once and on the ass a few times, but I don't get the special kick out of it that some people do. Same thing with coming on her stomach. I got nothing out of it. Would've been better to come on a piece of paper to save some cleaning. Masturbating with good porn would've probably induced a better orgasm and felt better in many ways.

I just don't get what's with the good-looking girls and their incapability to good sex. Helga is the least good-looking but definately the best lay. Her blowjobs are amazing and during intercourse she is really active and does her own share. She likes anal and is willing to do wild things with me just watching. Our sessions always last hours, cause I just don't want to come since it all feels so good already. She comes a few times.

I really like Sabrina. She's a really nice girl in many ways. I like spending time with her. I want to fuck her, but I don't think she'll be nearly as satisfying as Helga is.

What was good about the experience is that now my status is higher then Sabrina's. She is so good-looking that she could probably have about any guy she wants, so I've always felt like I have to constantly think very carefully what I'm doing so I don't fuck things up and miss my chance. Tonight that changed with her being so unsatisfying. I guess I gained some self-confidence since I'm the one disappointed with her "sexual skills" and not the other way around. Now I can be more relaxed when I'm with her.