Thursday, December 28, 2006

A quick update

I hope you all had a great Christmas, I know I did. Pretty much just slept and ate during the holidays. I introduced Jenni to my parents and I met her parents. I guess our relationship just got kicked up a notch in the seriousness-scale. Not yet quite sure if it's a good thing, but I don't lie to my parents so I couldn't keep her a secret.

Me and Jenni had a discussion about our sex life. I was pretty straightforward and honest with her, but tried not to be too harsh. Unfortunately I wasn't completely successful since she said I made her feel inadequate. I don't like making her feel bad, but hopefully it's all for the best.

We talked about submission, anal sex and rejection. According to her she rejects me often because she's shy. She feels awkward when I lick her, except when she's drunk. This explains a lot. We're just going to have to get over it.

Anal sex is something she wants to keep on trying, but so far she's simply been too tight. Inserting a single finger hurts her so I still haven't even tried fucking her ass. I haven't used any lubrication in anal sex in years since I think saliva works best, but we decided to try some with her. The great thing is that she's up for all this. She also loves it when I lick her ass and she's willing to suck on my finger if I feed it to her after it's been up her ass. I'm counting on some ass-to-mouth -action as soon as I get my cock in her ass,

The submission thing is something she's somewhat afraid of, it being completely new to her, but she's willing to learn. It's hard for her to completely lose control, but she promised she'd try more.

I'm sorry, I'm in quite a hurry so I have to keep this short. I don't think I'll have time to reply to the comments on my previous post right now, but I will soon. Have a great New Year's everyone. Guys, if you've never pulled on your girl's hair before, do it when you fuck her on New Year's eve. Girls, try rubbing your guy's asshole while sucking his cock. Let me know the results ;)

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Shot down twice

I tried posting already yesterday, but after writing a decent amount of text my browser crashed and naturally I hadn't saved the post as a draft. This composer should have an autosave feature. It's not the first time I've lost stuff in a similar way.

Last week I was really busy with studies and work so I only saw Jenni in the weekend. We were suppose to meet on Saturday, but after reading for an exam until 10 pm on Friday I decided to join her at a christmas party. She got totally wasted whereas I only had a few. I was hopelessly left behind in the drinking when I got to the party so I decided it's better to not even try catching up.

She came over to my place for the night. I was horny, and tried warming her up for some sex, but she rejected me saying "I'm so drunk I won't feel anything". I wanted to scream "So fucking what? I want to cum", but I kept my mouth shut. She should've at least given me a blowjob, god damn it.

Ok, now I'm probably pissing off a lot of people. I just hope you're getting my point. It's the reason she rejected me, not the fact that she did. It would've been OK if she'd just said she's too drunk to have sex. What I hated was that she was capable of sex, but didn't want to because she wouldn't get any pleasure out of it.

The way I see it, since we're dating, she's my sex toy. She's at my disposal and I'm at her's. That's one of the many things that dating means. I'm not saying you have to have sex if you're not feeling up for it, but I do think it is your responsibility to pleasure your partner in some other way. I'm willing to stand behind this. I promise I'll please my girlfriend anytime she asks me to. I only hope she could do the same.

The next day we fucked. Once again I made her bleed. I don't know what's up with that. She bleeds almost everytime I fuck her a bit more furiously than normal. I didn't hurt her though. She didn't even notice the bleeding until I told her. Well, I'm hoping it'll pass. Kind of like when you keep beating a bruise, eventually it'll go away. ;)

In the evening I had a christmas party with some friends and she joined us at a bar. Eventually we got back to my place, both pretty much shitfaced. This time we had sex and we fucked a good while. After the climaxes I kept spanking her ass, calling her a bad girl and such. I know it's such I cliche, but forgive me, I was drunk. Anyway, I was really enjoying my dominance, power and ownership until suddenly she got up and made me stop. "My whole bottom is sore from the fucking you just gave me" she said and thus brought me tumbling down from heavens. It pissed me off so much.

Of course it's her right to say no and I'd never want to hurt her. Again, however, the way she came about it is just plain wrong. If I'm dominant, she can't just make me stop. She's supposed to ask me if I would ease off because of her reasons and of course I would. The difference is that then I'd still be dominant and she'd still be submissive. I wouldn't lose my high, but she'd still get what she wants.

Apart from these two aforementioned incidents I had a great time with her this weekend. I love it how well she gets along with my friends. Even if she's in a group where she doesn't know anyone it'll only take her a few minutes to get a conversation going with someone. Completely different compared to, for example, Laura. With her I had to keep her company for the whole evening. With Jenni I can just hang out with my friends and I know she'll be just fine.

Every once and a while I miss being single. Evita is now very much available for fucking and there's a few others I wouldn't mind chasing, but so far I've kept my reins on. Actually I've been so busy I wouldn't have had time to see anyone even if I was single.

I'm not sure if I'll have time to write again before christmas so just in case: merry christmas! Guys, don't buy underwear as a gift to a girl. That's selfish.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

Her ass is too tight

No assfucking so far. Not because she doesn't want it, but because I've backed out. Last Sunday I did finger her ass a good while, but I couldn't get her to relax enough. Her ass was so tight it was hard to get my middle finger in so I decided to not even try it with my cock just yet. Hurting her now would possibly lead to her growing a dislike towards anal sex, which is the last thing I want. I'll just ease my way in to her ass slowly.

The sex otherwise is pretty great. She's good at sucking cock and doesn't mind doing it for quite a while. If I tell her to spread her ass cheeks for me just so I can watch and jerk off, she'll be happy to oblige. I spank her almost everytime we have sex. Another bonus is that she takes care of contraception. I don't have a problem with condoms, but it does make things a bit less complicated when you can just start fucking anytime you want and you can still make her suck your cock after that. I don't think a lot of girls like sucking a cock with a condom on.

She's still not as obedient as Jonna was. I loved how Jonna was completely at my mercy. She was pretty much my slut all the time and anywhere. She did what I told her to and pleasing me made her happy. With Jenni I have to think of her feelings too, which sucks. I'd much rather have her simply obey me and discard her own feelings. But, I guess I'm being an asshole and should just learn to appreciate her will too. I don't know.

It's been fun seeing my friends' reactions to the fact that I'm dating. Most have been sincerely suprised and would've never thought. One of my female friends said: "You're dating. Does that mean you're not going to see other girls anymore?" She had a hard time understanding that I was capable of monogamy.

Not fucking anyone else has been pretty easy so far, but I do miss the chasing. I could probably even skip the sex if I could just get to the point where I know I'm going to score. I guess in the end it's all about proving myself I've still got what it takes. It's a game.

Nah, to be honest, I do love new pussies. I love Jenni's pussy too, but we'll see if I love it enough to keep me away from others. Of course, I won't cheat on her. If I want to fuck someone else, I'll break up with her first. Though at the moment I don't think that's going to happen in the next few weeks at least.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Only time will tell

I have to admit, so far I've enjoyed being Jenni's boyfriend. Of course we've only been together for a very short while, but I thought I'd immediately feel a ball and chain on my ankle. I have had my trials since Evita has shown eagerness to suck my cock and I would enjoy spanking her ass and fucking her. Luckily, the world is full of meaningless sluts like Evita, and if I break up with Jenni I'm sure I'll find a new one fast enough.

I've been too busy too see Jenni a lot, but we talk on the phone three times a day. It's ridicilous. She usually calls me at work, then I call her when I get off work and then we talk on the phone in the evening too. I talk on the phone a lot and I call friends often, but nowhere near this much.

The sex is good. I love how wet I make her. All I need to do is kiss her ear and she's soaking. Now that's a sign of interest very hard to fake. I'm hoping to fuck her up the ass tonight since she's coming over to my place later on.

What I don't like is her failure to submit. With Jonna, as she walked in the door I told her to get down on her knees and suck my cock. I don't think I could get away with that with Jenni. However, this doesn't mean she can't be trained to do whatever I want. I remember how I turned Laura from an innocent little schoolgirl to a filthy little ass-to-mouth-slut so I'm hoping I'll be able to break the spirit of my sweet Jenni. And then again, if I can't, I'll just find someone else. That's life.

Is she the one? At the moment I don't think so. I enjoy her company a lot, I love being with her and the sex (apart from the submission) is great, but somethings just don't click. Only time will tell.