Evita, Evita's friend, Marilyn and my sort-of-boss

I saw Evita last Sunday. We had pretty much the basic set. I fucked her in several positions, spanked her ass until it was all red, fingered her ass, strangled her, pulled on her hair. One new thing I did was breath constriction. I covered her mouth and nose with my hand for just half a second so she couldn't breath. It was fun.

One thing was different. I don't know what went wrong, but I was unable to cum. I fucked her for ages, but I just couldn't get there. I very seldom have to fake orgasms, but this time I did it. It just wasn't going to happen and I didn't want to make her feel bad. I can't say what the problem was. Ok, I had masturbated some hours before her arrival so that probably had an effect, but I've done that a million times before.

Another thing that lowered my excitement was her finger nails in my buttocks. This time it really hurt. I like pain but naturally there is a limit to when it's enjoyable and when it's just plain and simply painful. I moved her hands away, but I guess the harm was already done. I can't even say that I just wasn't in the right mood since I could cum just fine in the shower only moments after the act. I guess I just wasn't in the mood to fuck her.

I saw her on Wednesday too, but I told her that I don't want to fuck. I just really didn't feel like it. I was tired and wanted to sleep. I think she was a bit offended. Anyway, I'm seeing her tomorrow so I'll make it up to her.

It's just so sad that she doesn't know how to give a decent blowjob. I'm so much in need of some good cock sucking, but she's not able to deliver. I've tried giving her some pointers, but there's just something so fundametally wrong with her technique that I'd need to do a lot of work on her to fix it. Laura gives me the best blowjobs, but that's simply because I've spent a lot of time teaching her what feels good and what doesn't so she knows me very well.

I forgot to mention a certain thing that pissed me off when I was at a bar with Evita and her friend. The friend was the same girl she hung out with the night I grew interested of Evita. I have no idea what I've been thinking. Her friend is way better looking and much more my type as a person than Evita. She could even possibly be girlfriend material. And I've probably ruined all my possibilites with since her and Evita are really close friend.

I've been thinking about just telling Evita about this and asking if it was OK if I asked her friend out, but it doesn't strike me as the best idea in the world. I'd probably just end up losing this thing I have with Evita now. It's not that it's worth a lot to me and I feel it means less and less everytime I see her, but still she's is a cumbucket at my disposal.

Dear readers, I'd appreciate your comments on this matter. Do you think I should talk to Evita about this or just forget about the whole deal? There are a lot of fish in the sea as we all know, but then again who knows what could come of me and her together. Please share you ideas on how to to come about this problem.

I was suppose to see Marilyn again last week but we were both really busy. This week I sent her a message on Monday asking if she'd like to meet up on Friday. It's Friday now and she hasn't even replied to my SMS. I'm probably going to stop contacting her. I don't want to push it. And I'm probably suppose to read between the lines. So this turned out pretty much the way I predicted earlier, only it took less than I thought.

Tonight I'm meeting the woman I mentioned that is sort of my boss. I wasn't suppose to act on it, but I do like her company. And it's not a date or anything, we're just going to talk.

Still hectic

I thought my life was going to be a little less hectic since I just finished one major project, but it turns out I was wrong. I'm just as busy now because other priorities creep up. Well, I don't really mind, I like being busy. It's just that being busy also means less time with girls, which is unfortunate.

I haven't seen any of them girls in a week or so. I'm seeing Evita in the evening so I can empty my sperm containers. I've been trying to warm up Laura a bit, but I don't want to be to pushy and she's still dating so nothing special has happened. All I want from her is a decent blowjob.

Hopefully I'll be able to see Marilyn in the week to come. Thanks a lot for your encouraging comments. I'll do my best, but this case is different. If I just wanted to fuck her it would be a lot easier. I could just say all the things she wants to hear and it probably wouldn't take long for me to be in her panties, but now that I'm thinking there might be something more to it I have to take a more decent approach.

I probably should just forget about these nobel ideas and just fuck her. I don't know how it often turns out that the worse you treat a girl the more she loves you. And I can be pretty damn good at treating girls bad ;)

I saw Sabrina last weekend. I haven't seen her in quite a while. She was still as hot as ever, but she's dating a guy. We met at a bar by accident and she praised my appearance. I praised her's too. I would've loved to take her home with me.

She's out of town

I wont't be able to see the special girl during the weekend since she's out of town. I'll call her Marilyn from now on. I'm consciously pulling myself down from the clouds since there are a lot of implications that she isn't especially interested in me.

I send her messages, she anwers very late or doesn't answer at all. Sure she's a busy girl so there can be a real reason for her sluggishness, but I myself do the same to girls I'm not especially interested in. The ones I'm really interested of I answer as soon as possible.

She never calls me. If I call her we talk on the phone for a while, but she never calls me. Definately not a good sign.

We'll see what happens. I'm going to just take it easy since the laws of Murphy are against me. The one girl that I really might be interested in is not interested in me, that's the way it's bound to be.

On Wednesday I was on a horrible date. It was a blind date that a friend of mine set up. I don't know what the hell he was thinking. And I don't know that the hell I was thinking when I agreed to it. The girl was ugly and stupid. I'm never going on a blind date again.

On Thursday I masturbated with an anal toy. I haven't done that in ages. I fucked myself in the ass with the toy as I jerked off. It was fun, though it wasn't as special as I remembered it to be. It's a lot more fun when there's a girl doing the fucking.

Evita was here last night and --suprise, suprise-- we fucked. Again I loved choking and spanking her, but that's about it. After the sex I asked her why she keeps having sex with me when she doesn't even cum. She said she does cum and I just don't notice, but she wasn't especially convincing. To tell you the truth, in her case I don't really even care that much if she cums or not. I use her for my pleasure and if she doesn't like it she can stop seeing me.

Today I spent a few hours with Laura. She's sort of dating at the moment and she was having a real dilemma when she really wanted to fuck me, but at the same time wanted to stay true to this boyfriend of her's. Well, we didn't fuck. I really could've used a decent blowjob, I haven't had one in a long time since Evita sucks at it.

Someone special

A few days ago Evita was trying to define our relationship which probably means to say that she wants more than just sex and friendship. I told her that's all I'm available for and that I just want to keep things the way they are. I drove to her place and we fucked.

The thing I liked most was when she was on all fours and I was beside her. I choked her with my left hand while spanking her ass with the right. It was awesome. I also fingered her ass that way. Her buttocks were all red and glowing when we finished.

Today I was out on a date. It was a new girl that I haven't mentioned before. This date however was special. She is very good looking and I knew that she's smart too. For the first time in quite a long time I was actually excited about going out with a girl. I mean excited in a way that I was worried about her not liking me.

I got up a lot earlier than usual just to wash clothes before leaving for work so I could wear the best stuff in the evening. I came home after work, took a shower and shaved. If it had been a normal date I would've just met her straight away after work.

The date went well. I really enjoyed her company and she seemed like she enjoyed mine as well. Finally I've found someone with potential to be my girlfriend. She might be a girl worth the effort. We'll see how things develop, but I just had to write this down right now to let out some steam.

I think I know what's going to happen with this girl though. I'll meet her a couple of more times, I'll fall in love and then she'll lose interest. She'll do to me what I've done to many girls.

Back again

A lot has happened since the last time I wrote.

A woman considerably older than me who is in a way my boss told me she's had a crush on me for quite a while. I was dumbfounded. It was flattering and she is attractive, but acting on it would've been stupid. She's dating and has been for quite a while. All I'd wanna do is fuck her and then forget about her. I told her it's best that she just stays with her man and I think I was able to convince her to do so. Luckily she won't be my boss for much longer.

I was also in drinking in the same place as Julia. Here's something to remind you who she is. At the party she asked me to talk to her privately. She told me how she's completely in love with me and hates me at the same time. I was drunk and somehow I just found the whole situation rather hilarious. She didn't especially appreciate my giggling so she grew angry with me. She probably still is.

I had sex with Evita last night. Much more strangling and hair-pulling than usual. I tried giving her a few pointers with the blowjobs, but it didn't help much. I enjoy sex with her but at the same time I'm getting a bit bored.

Luckily there's some new flesh on it's way. There are 3-4 girls I'm going to meet as soon as I find the time. I'm just afraid that they want something more than sex. I've talked to all of them a few times and it's just not gonna happen. They're not perfect so they're not adequate to be my girlfriend.